It’s been one of them days
When I’m feeling some type of way
It’s one of them days when I don’t have anything to say
Them days when it hurts so bad you become numb
Days when life is a black hole sucking out all the fun
When my feet wanna run and I’m low on emotional funds
Bankrupt of the same love that I used as ammunition
Firing away and sharing with everyone who was around
But like a boxer on the 12th, I’m out of rounds
Unless you wanna start counting frowns
I’m losing my head while it sits on top of my shoulders
But my head is a top cuz my thoughts keep spinning
And on top of that, I think the other side’s winning
Lost in my own darkness, the only way here is the way I feel
And though I can’t describe drowning in a drought I know for sure it’s real
Using makeup to make believe I’ve got this, I’m made of steel
Truth is I need to heal and I’m trying to weather this storm like a palm
I’m losing my grip, I got sweaty palms
I try to console myself with the book of Psalms
But the words tear as my eyes tear
And I’m going through this alone because I’ve got all these fears
I don’t want anyone around
To see me with my guard down
Plus this is my winter but I may just fall
I worked too hard at fleeing from what I’m feeling to fall for anyone at all
Conversely, I wish someone would spring into action
And even though I’m not whole, and my heart has a gaping hole, if he could give me a fraction of his time
Not that I care about his sign but if he could add to my life, that would be sublime
It’s been one of them days when quiet thoughts break the sound barrier
Racing through my mind, the faster they go the scarier
I begin to question my path, this pain, my purpose
I begin to think my efforts are worthless
It’s one of them days when tears turn to streams down my cheeks
And form puddles at my feet
Then one of them days turns into a long week
I look in the mirror and wish she’d stop crying, but I can’t make her
I plead with the heavens and cry out to my Maker
And as I fade into this night
All remains dark but one candle light
Amidst all my doubts of one thing I’m sure
I’ll have my dawn, my morning I’ll procure
But time has been mean for this day has been long
And in the meantime, my black night has my white flag drawn
And with the blow of the candle to kill the fire ablaze
I sit back and think, It’s just been one of them days
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Awwwww my Lord, about to burst in tears. Sooooo beautifuuuuuul. Thank you for opening up your soul like this and making it all so beautiful even though…what is going on is so sad. You are so talented. Keep on!!!
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Thank you dear Elluz, always an inspiration and motivator!! ❣️
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