Heart pacing, mind racing both running in sync.

This silence is so loud I can’t hear myself think.

The walls close in, I’m enveloped in a cocoon.

Hiding on an island by myself, I’m marooned.

Too afraid to face my fears I’d rather turn around and run.

Too weak from all my tears I’ve let the darkness think he’s won.

 

Who am I to face a giant? Who am I to fight this war?

This opponent is defiant and my strength is on the floor.

 

No one knows my struggles, no one knows my pain

Why am I going through this? God this is inhumane.

Overcome by guilt, sadness, and feelings of defeat.

Before this madness is the end of me, let me turn around and retreat.

I’m empty. I’d ask God to fill my cup but I can’t even get a handle.

Someone call Ms. Pope I’m living a real-life scandal.

 

Who am I to face a giant? Who am I to fight this war?

This opponent is defiant and my strength is on the floor.

 

I pick up a dusty book and wipe the cover to read the title,

To my amazement, I see it’s my old study Bible.

I open it up, doubting I’d find something I could use

After all, what does the Bible know about being scared, burdened and abused?

First page, The Lord helps the fallen and lifts the burdened, Psalm 145:14

Ok that was lucky, let’s see what it says about low self-esteem

Psalm 139:14, Fearfully and wonderfully made?

Mind-blowing. What is this a book or hand grenade?

 

Still…

Who am I to face a giant? Who am I to fight this war?

This opponent is defiant and my strength is on the floor.

 

I need more than words to fight my battle, this is real life, real war, real pain…or so it seems.

Ephesians 6:11: Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.

Ok fine, but my heart is wounded, pierced by people’s words and actions. What if I get hurt again?

Isaiah 54:17: No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn.

Still, I cannot do this alone. Is there someone that can help me? If so, then tell me who?

My help comes from the Lord, maker of heaven and Earth. Psalm 121:2

 

I alone can’t face this giant. I alone can’t fight this war.

This opponent is defiant, Lord give me strength, it’s all I ask for.

 

The Lord is with me like a mighty warrior, Jeremiah 20:11

Nothing is impossible with God, Luke 1:37

He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end.

Where the enemy thought I was finished, is where God chose to amend.

He is ever-present, everlasting, ever-faithful and the Sovereign King

The all-knowing, all-powerful, almighty God is stepping with me in this ring.

I thought I was facing giants, but it’s more like they’re facing mine.

My king breaks bondages and chains. Descendant of warriors and a divine bloodline.

You are greater than the one who is in the world, 1 John 4:4

You forgave my sins and filled my heart with joy, like a kid in a candy store.

I now know I’m not alone, I now know you were always there.

I now know you saw each tear, I now know you heard every prayer.

 

With God, I’ll face this giant, with Him I’ll fight this war.

And while my enemy is defiant, I hope he’s ready for what God has in store.

 

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